40 Days of Prayer: Conversations With The King Days 18 & 19


Dear Reader, 

Yesterday, my phone stopped working. And I was incredibly distraught because I knew I wouldn’t be able to post day 18 for this 40 days of Prayer series. I was mad that I couldn’t keep my word and that I was forced to take an unexpected pause in this journey that I wanted to seamlessly embark on. I was upset that I had to delete almost every single one of my photos that I had so intently taken with purpose and I knew that today’s photo would have to be from whatever was left. This photo happens to be from our trip to Yellowstone and the Badlands which we left on almost a year ago today. It was our anniversary trip, and God showed me the power of His hand and the beauty of His creation. Today I’m feeling conviction about all of my feelings from yesterday. Sure, my post was late. But God still heard my prayers and He still heard yours. God isn’t thrown off by a detour in our plans. He doesn’t think less of us if we feel unorganized and chaotic. He plans on those things happening because He knows we are broken people living in a broken world and He came to be our perfect God because He already knew we had fallen from perfection. Today I’m just thankful that I have a perfect God who covers over all of my imperfections. I’m thankful He still hears my prayers even when I’ve seemingly become lost in my own chaos. Grace is most evident to me when I realize how broken I am and how unable I am to do anything worthwhile on my own. God is the glory maker. He is the beauty bringer. He is the Grace changer. And for all of that I am thankful. If your 40 day prayer plan has been derailed at some point, know that it is still effective and God is still listening. He has enough Grace for all of us imperfect people. He is what makes us beautiful and He is what prayer is all about. 

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer 

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40 Days of Prayer: Conversations With the King Day 17

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Dear Reader,

The other evening my husband and I were sitting out on our deck. While we were out there two monarch butterflies came flying right up to us, and fluttered around us almost as if they were happy we were there. They weren’t in anyway afraid of us, though we were a hundred times their size. It was a really amazing moment. I don’t understand their lack of fear or really why they were drawn to us. After a while they flew off below the pines and were on their way together. Sometimes God enters our life this way too. Suddenly we find ourselves receiving undeserved Grace in His presence, and we are bewildered at why such a wonderful and perfect God would desire to be in our presence. We can’t understand why such a Good God would love us so deeply. Prayer ushers us into those moments. We may begin speaking to Him, and suddenly feel a connection with Him, a peace, or an understanding that takes us completely by surprise and leaves us breathless. What can I say about this powerful loving God who desires to be with us so much? How can my words ever sum up His Goodness towards us? Sometimes there are no words. Sometimes just resting silently in the Goodness of the presence of God is more than enough. His words are enough. His Goodness is enough. I pray you will experience moments like these in your own prayer life with Him. Chances are you already have. Because when God comes down to be with us, He really comes down to dwell among us.The Holy Spirit of God is so real and is often so tangible. The old hymn tells it best: “I stand amazed in the presence of Jesus the Nazarene, and wonder how He could love me, a sinner condemned, unclean. How marvelous, how wonderful, and my song shall ever be. How wonderful, how marvelous, is my Savior’s love for me.” Jesus gave this gift to us. He gave us the ability to once again stand in the presence of our Father God. He stands with us and for us and He tells us to come boldly as dearly loved children and sit at His Father’s feet and be wrapped in His Father’s love. This is what prayer is all about. It’s about being able to experience home with God for a few moments while we still walk this earth.

In Him,

A Fellow Grace Wanderer

40 Days of Prayer: Conversations With The King Day 16 


Dear Reader, 

Prayer doesn’t just lift our voice to Heaven. It changes us. When I know I’m going to talk to God about life, it changes how I do life. Prayer is a constant reminder that God is present, and so the encouragement and the power and the strength He grants me while I fold or lift my hands to Him in worship, carries into all the cracks and crevices of my life. His Spirit is Living Water for our souls and as all water does, it trickles and flows and bubbles up into the dry places of our lives. To know Him is to love Him. Because His Goodness begins to pour out into our daily life the closer and closer we get to Him. It doesn’t mean we get everything we have ever wanted. It means instead that we begin to see and understand and comprehend all the Good that HE has planned for us. Surrender is really Grace. We give Him our brokenness and He gives us Life. We give Him our sinful selves and He gives us His robe of Life. We bring to the table darkness, and He fills us instead with Light. He is the Light in our dark days, our strength when we are weak, our ever present Father. Prayer opens this all up for us. It lets us see our Father as He truly is, and calls us to take a closer look at who we truly are. There is Redemptive Grace at work here. He can bring us full Restoration through our time in the throne room with Him. Bringing our real lives to the feet of our Father is like remembering that we aren’t truly home until we’re with Him. The only place we will find full acceptance and grace for everything we are and everything we have been is at the side of our Savior who has thrown the doors to His Father’s house and His Father’s heart wide open for us. We are Loved, and because of that, we are heard. 

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer 

40 Days of Prayer: Conversations With The King Day 15 


Dear Reader, 

This week has been incredibly discouraging for me. Things I’ve tried to do have failed, people I’ve tried to love have shut me down, and the wait to grow our family has weighed heavy on my heart these last few days. This is truth though, and I know it to be so, that whenever we lean in closer to God and His calling and whenever we REALLY try to live out our love for Him, life will get hard. It’s not even a maybe. It’s a definite response to how things will play out. I have actively tried to change my life and surrender myself to God. That doesn’t mean I’m perfect or that I will always say the right things. In fact, it will probably mean that I say the wrong things more. What I’m trying to say here is that my original topic of Prayer over these 40 days was “grow my family”. And God is definitely growing me, and it feels like He is growing my husband too and other close family members. I meant when I prayed those words that I wanted God to bless us with children soon. But God heard my words and knew that I needed more than that. I needed self reflection. I needed to break down more of my walls. I needed to surrender more of my heart and humble more of my soul. That’s how God has chosen to grow my family so far, by first growing me. I don’t know what you have been praying over, but I do know that you’ve probably had difficult days too. The enemy sees when we join together in prayer and he will try everything to discourage you. But friend, you are Loved and heard and granted power to overcome by the Lover of your soul, the King of Heaven. Stay strong. Press on. 

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer 

40 Days of Prayer: Conversations With The King Day 14


Dear Reader, 

Last night we rode our bikes down the lake trail and caught a few moments of music in the park. Sometimes when I really look around at our life, I find that it’s what I had always hoped for. Except, I can still name a few things that are missing, namely more members of our family. The truth is though, living out here in this small town in the country is what I dreamed of as a little girl growing up near the big city. I wanted room to breathe and to grow. I had forgotten that I had wanted this, until we moved out here a couple of years ago. And just like that I saw how God was working, how He cared enough to send little me to the place I was hoping for. God is in the details. He cares about all of our small and seemingly meaningless thoughts and hopes. He works everything into the tapestry of Grace and Hope. Are there things He hasn’t given me? Yes. But I’m learning to trust that His answers are always gloriously best. So tonight sweet friends, trust where He is planting you or where He is sending you. There is purpose and grace to it all, even in the hard seasons and even when all we can see are the hard days. Keep lifting those prayers up to Heaven and watch as God answers and sends and gives. He is so Good. 

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer 

Waiting Mama Wednesdays


In case you didn’t know, every Wednesday on the Instagram page, HandWashedInGrace, is Waiting Mama Wednesday. These days are dedicated to waiting adoptive mama’s. We talk about adoption fundraisers, what we’re doing during the wait for our babies, and what God has to say to us during this time. If you’re a waiting mama or know someone who is, feel free to join in! #waitingmamawednesdays

40 Days of Prayer: Conversations With The King Day 13 


Dear Reader, 

What gives us the courage to pray? God’s Goodness. Only Good things come when we enter into His presence. Good doesn’t always mean easy though. In this life we are often called to walk through the fire. In so doing, we find God’s Grace even in the turmoil. He is the eye of every storm, a source of peace while we are encircled by our battles. He has promised us Good and mighty things. We can trust that His word and His heart for us are true. He has promised us a home within the shelter of His arms. If what you are praying for over the span of these 40 days seems frightening and too big to carry on your own, know that you can run to Him and find shelter. Know that you can call to Him and feel at peace. Know that you can look to Him and experience Grace. The maker of the winds and the waves is the God of peace and rest. In Him we live and move and have our being. Run to the One who knows you best, who loves you best, who can provide for you the best. He is your eternal hero. He is the author and the finisher of your tale of Grace. 

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer 

40 Days of Prayer: Conversations With The King Day 12


Dear Reader, 

I was thinking today of all the prayers I have forgotten that I prayed. Every once in awhile, God moves in my life or provides something so specific that it sparks a memory of a prayer I may have prayed years ago or even as a child. Answered prayers very often take time. When I consider all of the prayers I’ve ever prayed, the huge amount of requests I’ve brought into the throne room of God, I realize that every prayer has to be answered in its own specific timing or none of it would make sense. If God answered everything exactly when I wanted Him to I have reason to believe that my life would be nothing short of chaos. God is a God of order, of perfect timing, of orchestrating the universe and the story of time all in harmony with one another. When we whisper to God our prayers, He hears them. He is a God of love and grace. But Grace takes time for our mortal eyes to see fully. I have a notebook where I wrote down requests I made to God years ago. I’m astounded when I look back and find that God had an answer for each one of those requests. Today I would encourage you to document your conversations with God so that someday you can see that what you have documented was really His Grace towards you. He answers even if we can’t remember. He provides even if we can’t see it clearly. He loves us even when we’re not looking. Our God is a God of wonders and miracles but also of sweetly answered prayers delivered in the most humble of ways. Every good and perfect gift, no matter how small or how quietly delivered, comes from Him. He is Grace, and His Grace is always worth the wait.

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer 

40 Days of Prayer: Conversations With The King Day 11


Dear Reader, 

Today we’ve been grasping hold of some Sabbath rest. As I was listening to the sermon this Sunday morning I was asked to consider what it really means to be a disciple of Jesus. If I claim to follow Him, then I claim to desire to be more like Him. What does this mean for my prayer life? I think it means that on my worst day and on my best day, I continually seek my Father’s face, that I continue to commune with Him in honest and real conversation. As Jesus walked with His friends, and preached on the mountain, and even as He hung on a cross, He continually spoke to the Father. There are days when I have felt defeated, and in my defeat I have turned down the dial on the volume of my Father’s voice. Instead of calling out to Him, I have wrestled in silence. But Jesus never wrestled in silence. He cried to God, He gave thanks to God, He proved to us that we have a God who is not silent and because of that neither should we be silent. I’m not sure what you’ve been praying over so far on this 40 day prayer journey, but I want to encourage you to not fall silent. Whatever is on your heart, bring it before the Father. Whether it be praise or thanks or anguish and despair, God wants it. Because He wants all of you. If we are to give Him all of us, that means we are going to have to stand before Him even in our imperfections. I’ve tried to cover my heart in silence from the Father for too long, and maybe you have too. But He wants you to seek His face. He assures you that if you seek Him you will find Him. So keep those prayers coming and watch Him move. 

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer 

40 Days of Prayer: Conversations With The King Day 10


Dear Reader, 

Last night, the Sugar River flooded over. It spilled out across the already submerged corn fields and tumbled out across the highway we take home. It has felt like this tiny corner of Wisconsin we live in can’t seem to catch a break, can’t seem to have a moment to breathe and prepare before the next storm comes rolling thunderously in. But God has protected us and last night He showed me how He protects even the least of these. 

My husband was on His way home last night and I could hear the low growl of yet another summer storm heading toward us. I was praying over our little town and for safety for my husband as I was hanging up some new curtains. All of a sudden I looked down below the curtain rod and spotted a tiny chipmunk staring up at me from the window well below. He was clearly hurt and afraid. I tried so hard to get him out before the storm but couldn’t bring myself to crawl down into that spider filled window well. My husband came home just as the flash flood started and he quickly ran out and scooped up this poor little creature with the broken leg and brought him into the garage for the night. This morning we took him to a wildlife rescue where he will be rehabilitated. And I thought to myself, if I hadn’t happened to be working on this window that I hardly ever look out of on exactly this day, that little chipmunk might have died down there.

 I felt like God was showing me how prayer works. I prayed for safety for my little town but I didn’t know exactly what that looked like. God knew it looked like saving this tiny creature He had created. God knew that I couldn’t save him on my own, and so at exactly the right moment He sent my husband along to do what I couldn’t…or rather what I wouldn’t. 

God calms storms, but sometimes He simply chooses to rescue us from them instead, even while the clouds are still churning and the water is still rising. He provides us a safe haven, like He used us to do for this little animal last night. Nothing and no one is too small for Him. We might pray things without fully knowing what an answer to those prayers will look like, but God sees the whole picture. Keep praying my friends, and watch as God unfolds His Grace.

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer