A Grace Note: 10 Days of Advent Joy 


Dear Reader, 

I’m anxiously awaiting a fresh coat of snow set to arrive this weekend. I have discovered that snow sparks something in me, causes me to be more optimistic and full of hope, as if snow signals a fresh start or a birth of something new. I have had a lot of time to myself these last few months, time to think and to wonder about my future. I realized yesterday that God is still making me into something new, He is changing continually how I see and do things. When I stopped working in July, due to needing a period of rest while undergoing infertility treatments and considering staying home and doing adoption or foster care full time, I realized that I don’t “do” anything anymore. When people asked what I “do” I found myself replying, “nothing at the moment”. And my pride has most definitely taken a hit by this. Who am I? What do I do? What am I contributing? Will I ever become anything? God has shown me that our lives are not really about what we “do”, or how we make money. It’s more about how we live with Him. Simplicity in Grace is what I am so desperately after. How to live a life full of joy in Christ without the expectations of the world causing me to feel guilt or defining what I do or where I go. I can live without extra things, but I can’t live without hope in Christ. I’m in a period of waiting as I go through two more months of hormone treatments…our last try at this. I am hopeful about adoption. But for now, in these months of hoping and yet trying so hard not to get my hopes up, I am banking on God’s gifts of beauty in this season to find joy in the present. I needed the snow that came last weekend to light something in my soul, to remind me that there are still light and beautiful things and that God is strong enough to carry all of our heavy things. Last month I did a Facebook Live series on Thanksgiving and Infertility, searching for things we can be honestly thankful for. And this month I’m searching for things that can bring us joy. For the next 10 days I will be posting here and on my Instagram account handwashedingrace about that, because I need to see joy more clearly. I don’t know exactly what is ahead for me, but I know with all my soul that God has planted joy just waiting to be found. 

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer

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Thankful For the Hard Things: Infertility and Thanksgiving Part 4

The last video for the Facebook Live series is now posted! There are links for all four videos posted in the Follow Me section of the blog, in case you missed it! I’m praying that the series will be able to break through some of the bitterness and pain of infertility this Thanksgiving, and that it will help us to lift broken hands and broken hearts in honest and redemptive thankfulness. 

Thankful for the Hard Things Part 4: Elizabeth

Thankful for the Hard Things: Infertility and Thanksgiving Part 2

Dear Reader,

I started a four part Facebook Live Series last week to talk about Infertility and to dig in deep, in order that we who are going through it might be able to offer up some honest thanks to God this Thanksgiving. Today the second video of the series was posted and we talk about Sarah. Sarah has a messy story, but so do many of us. She manifests some of our deepest and darkest emotions. But God loves her, and her messiness is not able to derail God’s plan for her, and your messiness can’t derail His plan for you either. Won’t you join me? Like Hand Washed Grace on Facebook to follow along, or check the Follow section of this blog to get the links. Here is a quick link to the second video. Thankful for the Hard Things: Infertility and Thanksgiving Part II

In Him,

A Fellow  Grace Wanderer

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A Grace Note: God Turns Weakness into Strength


Dear Reader, 

November 2nd entered with low rumbles of thunder and the quick pitter pattering of rain down the windows of my bedroom and right down into my soul. I know that soon those mist wrapped raindrops will be exchanged for soft flakes of white snow and the world will fall into a silent expectant peace. It seemed so appropriate for the gentle thunder to be the first thing I heard this morning, almost as if God was saying “I know today you will do a hard thing, remember that I am powerful and that my Grace runs freely through you”. It was the nudge I needed today as tonight I start a Facebook Live series on thankfulness and infertility…a battle that I kept silent for so long and a battle that I am still learning to articulate. But God has called me here to this place, He reminded me that His power is made perfect in my weakness. And so I have chosen His power over my own, I have been humbled in a way that I never could have been otherwise, and I am laying my worries to rest in a bed of soft and honest thankfulness to my Lord and God…to my Creator who calls me His beloved, who calls all of His children His beloved. I am my Redeemer’s and He is mine, His banner over me is love. This is true for you today no matter what struggle you are in. God is your strength, He gives power to the weak. 

In Him, 

A Fellow Grace Wanderer 

A Facebook Live Series: Thankful For the Hard Things

Scripture tells us to be thankful in all things. To always give thanks to God. To break bread in thanks, to commune in thanks, to live in thanks. But there are things in our lives that we just can’t bring ourselves to raise up in thanks. Infertility is one of those things. I want to help you if you are going through this battle this November to see the blessing in this suffering, so that come this Thanksgiving Day you will be able to lift your hands in true and honest thanks to the one who delivers you and frees you from all pain. This four week series starts tomorrow at 4pm on Facebook live. It’s just a once a week chat for four weeks between me, you, and God. Follow Hand Washed Grace on Facebook to join me. 

A Three Part Video Series: The Works of Grace

Hey all! This is something new that I am doing and thought you might like to follow along. Today I released the first of a three part video series on YouTube titled The Works of Grace. If you are interested in hearing about God’s true intent for works in your life, then feel free to follow along! Just click on this link for Part I: https://youtu.be/6tpXp2-Vezs